Today was... so weird.

I had the best day in a while today. I'm still living in my own hell, but today was better. I hope it keeps getting better. I still have the ache in my heart, but i'm sure one day it'll be fixed.. whether it's by the boy i want it to be or not. Hopefully things work out for me. I just wanted to let you know, i'm getting better.


There is one problem though, jealousy.
I'm so jealous.. it's ridiculous. I don't have any reason to be though, i have plenty of guys trying to be with me.. right? Then why do i feel so jealous that i wish it was me that he waits for..that it's me he can't wait to talk to.. that it's me he looks for..? I guess i'm going to hurt more before i feel better. Man... i miss you bryce... and everything about you.


"I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me"