Finals. Birthday. Graduation. Senior Rings.

SEVENTEEEEN in less than 25 hours, but more than 24. YAY!
but boooo for the start of finals weeeeek.

ONE WEEK TILL RING CEREMONY.
<3


my boyfriend got drunk today.
kbye.

I have you forever

I'm happy with you and you're happy with me.
I got a tumblr because i figured i can express myself better with images and that is ABSOLUTELY right. I'm addicted to it, and if you want to look me up you can: laurenisadinosaur.tumblr.com

So today was the Seniors of 2011's last full day at Erath High School with me. At first I was looking forward to it, but now i'm not so sure. It's depressing when i think about it, because the majority of my friends are seniors. Two of my best friends are seniors. Bryce and Tori. Thinking of going through one more year of high school without them is heartbreaking. I know that most people lose touch once they graduate highschool, but i'm really hoping that we keep in touch. It's definitely bitter sweet. Class of 2011, as much as i hate to say it, i do love y'all. & good luck in the future.

I think i believe that Bryce would never do anything to hurt me, but i'm constantly thinking that something is not right between us. I try to make myself believe that i trust him, but i don't. He told me how he went help one of his little girl friend's last night at her house with homework. Before we broke up, I wouldn't have thought anything of it, but now it worries me. He's a pretty good liar, obviously since he'd lied before and i believed it.. It hurts my heart to think that he would hurt me after everything this year, but it is clearly possible after everything that he has already done to me. What to do, what to do? I'm so confused, and i won't tell him anything about this so we won't fight, because i don't believe anything he says anymore... especially since signs always point to the bad.

Anger is only one letter short of danger.

"He who angers you, conquers you."
I really do need to get my anger out about Amber. I honestly do, because now EVERY little thing she does pisses me off. The last thing i want or need is my life revolving around her. It's not in a good way at all. I just got to keep my cool, but how long can i keep it without blowing up inside?

I lalalalove my boyfriend.

I love spamming his phone while he takes a shower, btw, you may have to actually click on the image to read it. Anyways, i've been extremely happy with this boy since we got back together. He's so amazing, even though he doesn't believe it or agree with me. Oh and on a random note, because of the bipolar weather we have here in Louisiana, i'm sick with a cold in May? So thanks for being in the forties randomly, i really appreciate it. You know, getting me sick right around finals. Just wonderful.
I hope you caught the sarcasm in that. Anyways back to Bryce(: He absolutely always makes my day better and always makes me smile, therefore i am the luckiest person ever,< 3 One day i'm going to be as badass as he is, i promise(: Besides, since i have forever with him, i'm sure one day his amazingness will rub off onto me. lolol Hey Bryce Monteaux, i love you with all my heart forever and always, got that? I bet if he responded the answer to that would be "Nope;p" < 333 Well i really need to stop obsessing over my boyfriend's amazingness, don't want to get too many people jealous because i'm so lucky :p
13 days till my birthday.
7 days till the Avenged Sevenfold concert.
17 days till Graduation & proj. grad.
19 days till i become a SENIOR!

Anger races inside me.

This is my best friend Meagan Perkins. Probably the most pure and innocent person to walk the earth. Lately though, her boy track hasn't been so great. She tends to fall for the ones who are only out to hurt her. I'm not one who can just accept when a guy hurts my friend and i always put my two cents in. This time is completely different only because this is not the first time this lowlife has ruined her. He's cheated on her multiple times, and she's let him in over and over again, but i'm pretty fed up with it. I'm tired of thinking "Oh he'll change this time" along with Meagan. The anger that i have towards him is unbearable. I don't want to see her break one more fucking time because of this no good asshole that isn't getting anywhere in life, smoking weed, drinking, and having sex with anyone who will give it too him. As i've told him many times and i'm sure i've made my point, He does not deserve her because she is way too good. She tried way to hard for someone who won't even give her the time of day. I mean, he won't change for her. He won't even try. He blames her for his guilt, so why is she still giving him her heart? Hopefully she isn't anymore. I feel like her though, i tend to want him to do better in his life, but he won't, so this is where we all give up. Meagan Nicole, i love you so much and you deserve so much better, i've always told you this, but maybe this time you will actually listen to me, since i'm ALWAYS, well almost 99% of the time, right (;

This bitch will never fool us again.