I skipped out on school.

Today is February 2nd, 2011. It is exactly one month since my life went straight downhill. I'm alright today though, i suffered a migraine and heartache. Besides that, i'm OK. I still miss the happiness that i no longer have in my life, but i always will miss that. I'm starting to get used to the lonesome feelings, the hurt, the pain. I'm used to feeling worthless and useless. i'm used to it now, and all i can do is just try to move forward, instead of backwards.. I long for him to be more than just my friend. I long for him to come back. But since he's not, i'll accept it and one day, i'll be okay with that.

"I'm not exactly sure what I should say. Everything I do is a mistake. Your attention is attention, It doesn't matter if it's fake or real, I'll take it if I get it. I've made up my mind, I'll do it over any time."