What am I? I looked in the mirror today, and just broke down. Am i really that terrible of a person? Do i not deserve you? Do i deserve anything? Am i not good enough? Where did i go wrong? & why can't i move on?
I know things aren't going to work out between us, so why am i still hoping that you'll come around, that you'll come back to me? I know you won't, i know you have something else in mind, so why am i still waiting? You tell me EVERYTHING i want to hear, you know it's wrong, you say you mean it. BUT damn, if you feel that way about me, then what the fuck are you doing? Tearing me apart, tearing me down. Making me nothing. You say you love me, but you can't handle me. I don't want you to handle me... I want you to be with me, a relationship like we're suppose to have. I can't stand to look at couples, they're everywhere just making me realize that you're gone. Gone for good, you even said that yourself. You said you're not coming back. You said you're done with me. Why can't i just let you go? Since January 2nd, i've cried every day over you. Every day. I hurt everyday. For you, it's getting easier but for me it's only getting harder. I'm trying to pull away from you because that's what you want, but i can't. I can't let you take away the absolute only thing in this world that I want. I want you forever. In my future, forever, with me. I know it's a lot to ask.. i know. But i just want to hear that this isn't over. I'd feel so much better if you'd tell me this isn't over.. i don't want this to be over, you said so yourself, you don't want this to be over either... I believed you when you said that, and i don't want it to be a lie, but i can't be your friend forever with the feelings i have for you. Come back, one day, come back..
"You're the only thing on my one broken track mind.."
On the bright side, Zayda will be here tomorrow. I'll have something to keep my mind off of him with..
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