Pft.

Let's start off with me:
I'm doing wonderful. I don't feel pain anymore. I don't care at all anymore. It's like he never existed. Even though i have thought about trying to prove to him more stuff, i realized, he's not worth my trouble. I mean, it's been two months since we broke up and about two weeks since we stopped everything & he already has a new girlfriend? I mean, i wouldn't care if she wouldn't be so damn messy between me and Corey. She decided to tell Corey's mother that i wasn't a virgin, and she decided to tell Corey that Corey shouldn't talk to me, because i'm not pretty and basically he should be talking to someone who's at least a little bit pretty. Who the fuck does that nowadays? Oh.. yeah. Fourteen Year Old Freshmen. I don't know if she doesn't like me because i'm her boyfriend's ex, but i mean, he chose you over me, why hate me for that? He was suppose to be in so called "love" with me, but he chose you, someone he barely knew over me. Don't hate me, clearly when it should be the other way around. Don't get me wrong though, i have nothing against his new girlfriend, i just wish she'd grow up a bit and stop acting like what she is. Especially if she's going to try to be good enough for Bryce, which i doubt will ever happen. 'Cause of course, he deserves the best only.
If you're wondering who Corey is, he's not my boyfriend. Unlike Bryce, i'm not capable of being in a relationship right after a terrible break up. I've done it before, and i will never make the mistake again. Everyone keeps expecting me to stick my nose, or at least be the littlest angry, but i'm not because i'm still all about the whole "Whatever makes him happy" If it's her, than that's what i want for him.
Let's just say, i bet y'all would be proud of me if i told you that i haven't cried since Monday. Progress is progress and i'm glad to have it. I have to thank my wonderful friends who pull me through that absolute hardest times. Jessica and Meagan, i don't know what i'd do without you girls. Losing something important from your life, and having the absolute two BESTEST friends that i could ask for, is just remarkable.

I don't want to say i'm completely 100% OK, or 100% over Bryce and what we had, because i'm not. I can say though, that i can live without him, and though i still love him, i doubt things will ever be the same between us again. I'm a good 75% OK though, i honestly am. I'm smiling all the time, and i'm actually happy, i can actually breathe and live. That doesn't mean that i don't occassionally think "What if" and that definitely doesn't mean that i don't miss him, because i do. But I don't dwell on it anymore, he's moving on with his life without me and i can't stop that. The one thing i want most in my life though is to have him back in it. Not as my boyfriend, just as my best friend. He was the only person to really understand me, and starting over is not my favorite thing. But i can only wait around and see what was meant to happen, because if he wasn't meant to be in my future, then clearly we can all tell that he won't be. <3

"Whenever you knock me down, i will not stay on the ground,"