Missing you is so not fun.

So, i'm sitting around missing you.
As if there would honestly being a point to missing you, not like it's doing me any good. It's just making things worse. Butttt, i'm sitting here. Realizing that it's as good as done for me, wanting to beg, but finding there's no point.

I'm going though what i put you through two years ago, but the difference between me and you is that i couldn't do it, i couldn't put you through that pain, because i loved you too much. But you, you don't give a damn what i go through.

I don't know why i try to even talk to you, when all it does it make me miss you.
I shouldn't fucking feel this way. I should be fucking happy. But no, i can't ever be happy, and i'm sick of feeling this way. I'm sick of feeling left behind, feeling not good enough.

I swear i have hundreds of guys that would kill to be with me, but i can't, unfotunately i still love you.

Countless guys talk to me daily, and ask me out, i shut them all down. Sure i have my fun every now and then, but it's not the same. it's not what i want. I just want to be far away from you. I just want you to be eliminated from my life completely. I don't want to feel like this anymore, and i sure as hell don't want to cry over it one more time.


Please, just disappear.

"They say time heals everything, but i'm still waiting.."